Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Look at my babies...they could be twins!


GRACE - 8 MONTHS


JAMES - 6 MONTHS

Monday, October 23, 2006

Bloody Hell. (That is my favorite expression that I try HARD not to use in front of my kids. but I like it.)

I've been wasting an enormous amount of time in front of this computer doing NOTHING I am supposed to. Nothing. I have read blogs, and rummaged around Ebay, and done bloody hell nothing at all. Its now after midnight. sigh.

My house looks like a mad train went through it. Not a nice, straight train that would cause only damage in its wake. No siree, its a MAD train that went in concentric circles all around dropping bits of stuff everywhere. "Isn't that a FINE idea" this mad train said to itself (otherwise known as my family), "let's just drop stuff wherever we remove it and let it lie there forever".

I MUST write one, at least one, tonight. I will not go to bed until then.

Tip of the Day (yes, this one is for you dear reader): If you have WAY too many family photos and you want to make some display sense of them, try these tips:
1. Go to a discount or craft store and buy all the same frames. They dont have to be EXACTLY the same, just the same look. (Gold, Silver, Dark wood, whatever, just the same)
2. Pick a few (I SAID FEW) areas of your house to display family photos. I generally don't like to put them out in the areas we use for entertaining. That is what nice photo albums are for (yes, in my dreamland, they are all nicely in beautiful photo albums, but at least try to keep 2 if you like to show off pics). We currently are going to use our upstairs hall for our gallery. It's okay to have a couple of places, just don't hodgepodge them all over the house in various nooks and crannies and in all different frames.
3. Create a gallery. Use your "sameframes" (see #1) and place them in a pleasing collection on the wall. Scan and reprint if need be to get them to similar sizes. If hanging less than 7, use odd numbers. If more, go for the grid with even. (If you are me, I am going to use 20, and rescan them all to black and white.)
4. In the bedroom (or if you MUST put snapshots in the common rooms), pick a couple of simple, quality frames. Then swap out the display pictures regularly. I use two 8 x 10 thick dark wood frames in our bedroom and change the kid's pictures as I get new ones. That way I have my darlings there, but am not overwhelmed with them. I also get the pictures for these frames in Sepia usually.

Ok, Thats it for tonight. If only I didn't have to sleep and everyone else did. THEN I might stand a chance of getting everything done in life that I want to. I'm feeling kind of repressed creatively. I got a new camera today, I can't wait to play with it. I also just want to paint, and draw and go outside and shoot some artsy shots of my babies. I just have no time. I think that is what I am going to ask for my 30th birthday. TIME! (I wish) No, I am going to find a arty class once a week and ask DH to please take the babies that night. I really need an outlet to fulfill that part.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

today will be a good day.

I am making the choice right now.

I will stop when I feel overwhelmed and just breathe. I will take the time to help my kids when they cry, whine or scream instead of feeling like I can't do it all.

Today I want to accomplish 3 things.

1. Clean out the office.
2. Do some yard work.
3. Hang at least 1 picture.

Ok, those are my goals. We will see how I do.

Tip of the day: Group the stuff you like together. If you collect one thing (or maybe you don't KNOW you collect, look around) group them together for display. This makes your clutter-you-can't-resist into a honest to goodness display. Find a glass case or old bookshelf you can paint a accent color on and put it all together. It's the collections in a home, wether they are pictures, carvings, books, boxes, that make it interesting and unique.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Ok, in the spirit of what my sister is doing (on her blog, she is giving tips) I am going to give tips about what I know about...which I am going to limit to 3 categories that I think I'm pretty good at. (Being a Mom, Graphic Arts, & Home Design) Since I have approximately 1 loyal reader, its going to be of course more for me than anyone else. But it's good to put it all together.

But first, things I want to remember today:
1. The way my son's cheek felt when he fell asleep on my shoulder. I kissed his cheeck and just held my mouth there and closed my eyes and tried to remember the baby softness, the joy of a little body, his tiny arms around me and exactly how good he smelled. THAT is the reason to be a mom...the indescribable potential gathered close to you.

2. That my daughter loves me so much it impresses her. That's great. I don't know if I blogged about it, but I love that.

3. That today my daughter starts ballet. She is no longer a baby, but a little girl with dreams and she gets scared of the dark and monsters and is way too much like her mommy in that she scares herself in her head far more than anything OUT of her head. I can't wait to see her in that little tutu. (MUST GO GET CAMERA)

4. I dont want to forget how excited i was when i found out I was pregnant. That wonderful buzzzzz and excitment and scared. I don't intend to ever BE pregnant again, so I want to remember.

5. I want to remember the way my husbands green eyes shine and his dimples come when he is happy and smiling right into my face. I am beginning to see small lines, and more stuble and a little age showing...but it honestly makes him more appealing. We have been together since we were teenagers, and I still feel that little "KICK" in my heart sometimes when he looks at me. THAT, I dont' want to ever forget or loose.

6. The way my son nurses very early in the morning, snuggling that little body right up to mine and putting his hand on my arm. He closes his eyes and just sighs with contentment when he snuggles down. I usually end up very uncomfortable, but its still the best thing in the world, and honestly the only reason I am still nursing.

7. My little girl's elfin face. When she is laughing and giggling and looking at me, her little cheecks are perfect. Just perfect. And her little ears are round, and her hair is wavy and all around her face in ringlets. There is NO more beautiful girl in the world. I actually see myself as more beautiful because I can see some of my features in her.

8. The warm feeling of my dog. At night when im tired and reading a magazine or a good book...just the simple company of another being in the quiet. And to know that being the center of that world is a good thing.

Thats for now. Just the top of my head. I need to stop. think. appreciate. my life goes by too fast, and I collapse in tiredness at the end of the day. I need to just remember every detail because it all happens too fast. I was telling my husband that we should hire someone to follow us aroudn with a camera so we could have these days.

Ok, quick tip for the day:
- Since I am a southern lady, I believe that it's nice sometimes for my husband to come home to a good meal. If I have not had time to get started and I hear him coming, I throw something in a skillet with olive oil. Onions are the best, but if you are REALLY late, just put in some onion flakes and roasted garlic...then some bread. Brown the bread and then mix up a can of mushroom soup and pour over top. This takes literally about 5 minutes and I haven't met a man yet that didn't like it. Steamed veggies (or raw if you are REALLY pressed for time) completes a fairly decent meal. Grate some cheese over top if you aren't "reducing". Serve whatever juice/water/ sparkling thing you have in nice glasses, even if you are eating off of paper plates. The things you place in your mouth should NOT be plastic or paper in my opinion. Most of all, greet him with a kiss and say "Welcome home, I am so glad to see you". Even when I am upset or not happy, I try and do that. It says that they mean enough to you for you to stop and recognize that they are there. Watch yourself, do you do that for your loved ones? Recognize that they are there? I know I didn't until I actually made a point of it.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

"The primary findings of this study are that the stimulant
MPH and the selective norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor
ATX have similar effects on cortical inhibition (SICI) in
children with ADHD, and that the dopamine transporter
influences the neurophysiological effects of both medications.
SICI, a measure of cortical inhibitory activity that is
reduced in ADHD (Moll et al., 2001) and correlates inversely
with ADHD symptom severity"

Make sense to you? Yeah, me either. Problem is, this is my job to not only UNDERSTAND, but to regurgitate (what a word) it out into a small, neat, understandable abstract that Doctors (specialists with Many Many years of training) will like to read and understand. So, that means that I (without the Many Many years of training) will take something long and hard to understand and make it short and interesting for specialists. Oi. The good part is that I feel very smart and accomplished when I finish my packages, the bad part is that I feel very stupid and overwhelmed while I'm doing it.

What a bad night last night. I went to sleep at 2am, which isn't that bad...but then husband snored and tossed and turned and muttered and yanked covers, and then baby got up at 4am and tossed and turned and yanked covers, then the girl got up at 7am and "read stories" in our bed loudly. I just didn't sleep more than 45 minutes at a time, and the sleep I got was perched on the corner of the bed. Oi. Such is the life.

A good note, I bought the Dyson vacuum...it is freakin awesome. This thing gets out dirt from like 1999. Well, maybe not that long (we bought the carpets last year) but it gets out HUGE amounts of scary stuff. Love it.

On a bad note, the carpenter said that the beams UNDER the bathroom we are working on are rotten. Does that mean that the NEW PIPES have to be removed for them to be fixed? We have already removed the brand new floor to get at the rotten pipes. Oi.

The good news? My daughter told me she "loves me so much she is impressed". I love it. That has to be one of my favorite quotes yet.

More good news? Coffee exists. Thank God.

Bad news? All the hard work I'm writing on is not getting paid. Sigh. It's hard to keep doing stuff that is so difficult and not get any money out of it.

Just news...Steven got a new assignment, better money but longer hours including some Sundays. He will be working 60+ hours a week. OUCH. I just love being a single parent sometimes, but I know we will ge through this. I have to do my part when he is working so very hard. I'm hoping that God will send us a great investment opportunity. And no hubby dear, it's not the racehorse you wanted to buy half of. (Buying Horse semen, HELOO, NOT A GOOD INVESTMENT unless you really really know what you are doing. Although after all these Gene studies and several years of IVF you would think I did. hehehe.) My DH has the soul of a gambler as they say. All part of his charm, but thank goodness he is also a christian and we do not live anywhere near Vegas.

Dont you hate it when something is on backorder and you really really want it? I had convinced myself that I could just find something as good but I cant. So i wait. BAH! Hate waiting!

The boy has taken to LOVING toys and has 7 official teeth. 7. Before six months. Rack 'em up, James is taking his little world by storm. He also screams MAMA, which I take to mean me.

My world is funny, confusing, loving, tiring, frustrating and absolutely beautiful with these little babies and a wonderful husband. (Whom I might add, had his Yankees win the first game of the post season. uh, yea?)