Wednesday, January 16, 2008


I'm tired. I should just go to bed...but its these hours after the munchkins go to bed that give me energy for the next day. I'm watching TV and typing away, and barely keeping my eyes open. I got very little sleep last night, for some reason my son has decided to wake up several times a night and yell his little lungs out. I think he might be hungry, so we will try feeding him right away and then putting him down again. Problem is, he sleeps in his own queen sized bed now. He got too big for the crib, toddler bed, full size mattress...and yes, he is only 21 months old. My big boy...and the love of my life. Well, one of them anyway. Who knew kids were so incredible?

I had stuff I was going to "talk" about...but I just don't have the energy.

Oh dip! This tv show just got really good! Be back later!

Monday, January 14, 2008

good morning my friends...

today is part of a new year and one for perhaps somewhat difficult decisions. Our family is trying to decide about some big "life" things such as career, home, moving, etc. It is shaking me up to my roots...or lack thereof. I have little roots, friends, landmarks, this house that I love. But none of them are very strong here, and that is part of the problem. I have strong roots in my friends and loved ones though, and for that I am blessed.

If I could wave my magic wand and make things change, I would. I would sell our house for a tidy profit, find a good rental and really work for a year or two on paying off bills and getting my husband into a career he loves and has passion for. If only it were that easy, huh? We dont know if we can sell our house for what we need to, I dont know where to move.

Guide us Father, we need your wisdom and your way.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Two shots of the Woodside trio...

From the side...I always had a complex about my nose. Gee, thanks Pam! I think I should send her this pic! Its not that bad.

the South will RISE AGAIN! (but, eh, without all the bad stuff)

one of the loves of my life..dirty face and all
because I am a frustrated "real" photographer like everyone else on the internet, Im going to post a few pics that i have taken over the last few days...
Tiny Little New Toes...

Mean, Mean Auntie! Bothering the Baby...
Here is my gorgeous new nephew!

Griffin Joseph
8 lbs, 3 oz.
20.5 inches

Live Long and Prosper!

And here is what the other four kids were doing...after the cake, balloons, gifts, etc! (That is a extremely small closet...about 24 inches, and they all got in there and closed the doors!

Friday, January 04, 2008

I'm cold...tired...and glad to be home.

I really like my house. It is a old, (1926) brick colonial with near perfect proportions. I would add a few things here and there, but overall I really enjoy it. It's funny how THIS place feels like home.

I however, don't really love the town we live in. We are thinking of moving somewhere in the next few years and we have to find a school that we really trust and like. I go back and forth because no school is perfect enough for my babies. I want a christian environment, I want kids that are mannerly and dont do drugs or curse, I want a learning environment that is top notch, and I want a broad scale education. I want them to teach to my kid's individual strengths, but have personalized attention for their weaknesses. Sigh. I'm not sure this exists, and if it does it costs like 27000 a year. no, that is not a typo, thats how much kindergarten costs in our area at the top schools.

My house looks like it blew up and its still xmas around here. We have almost no food in the house and im sleepy.

Oh well, it sounds like I'm mostly complaining today...but at least I went and got a sweater. Cashmere is a cure for a lot of ills.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

A New Year. (notice the capitals...) I love the start of a New Year. It means that a time to reflect, to plan, to make a conscious decision to take another step on my personal journey. I like to write reflections, but I absolutely do NOT make resolutions. I like to have goals, but I don't like to make them something that might make me feel guilty later.

This isn't going to be a long hard is just going to be one of thanksgiving and quiet joy.

I love, and I am loved. I am fantastically secure in that love and it gives me the power to be a better woman. That fact alone makes this year a good one. I know that I have that in my corner and it makes this world not so scary. After 13 years together I still think my partner is a pretty interesting and great person. I like spending time with him, and value his thoughts.

I have two amazing children. I have gone through loosing 5 babies that I wanted very, very much. But I am blessed with two of the best, smartest, kindest, gorgeous babies that ever existed. Every single day of their lives I have marveled at them. Their ideas, their individuality. They are parts of those that I love wrapped up in their own incredible packages.

I have family who support me. Engage with me. I have a mother, father, in laws, brothers, sisters. God has brought them into my life at different times. I wasn't born with most of them, but I got them along the way. They are my lifeline to sanity and I wouldn't know how to make my life without them.

I have a faith that there is a God. I have faith that I do not Walk Alone. That is a great gift.